This is often a hard time of year for me, emotionally. I am so active, and mostly outside during the summer months, that once it starts to cool down and the days get shorter, I start to go into a withdrawal. It also doesn't help that this is the time of year that Will is hunting, and I often end up sitting inside on a cool evening, fretting that he has fallen out of a tree and now I'm a widow.
So far, he has not fallen out of a tree, and so far, I am not a widow. Let's hope it stays that way.
This year seems to be especially hard for me, but maybe I say that every year. There are some family things going on that I am taking supremely personally, even though they really have nothing to do with me. I had a rough summer with that annoying problem of having too much free time (and therefore, getting nothing done).
Despite having to battle my own brain everyday, I am outrageously happy with my life. The little moments pull me through. Like, for instance, this morning. Today was a beautiful, sunny day for the first time in many days. Knowing that I would have to spend the afternoon inside because I had to go to work, I stood out in the sun for a bit, admiring the view and brushing my hair. Everything was still wet, and the sun was just creeping up over the tree line and then BAM! All of a sudden, there was sun and warmth. For a moment, I thought the house was on fire, but then logic took over and I realized that the water drops that were still on the roof were evaporating off into a thick steam, billowing down onto the lawn.
And for a moment, I forgot about my own brain and was happy and awestruck.
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